Purposeful living

Sometimes I wonder where my future will lead me. Perhaps it’s more like; where is my present taking me? I feel so guilty when I read stories and wish harm on the bad guys. Is that really how I feel? That everyone who has ever wronged me deserves death, or to even suffer? Thinking about this is humbling, because Jesus allowed people to spit in his face and thrash his back with whips, while still wishing them a life of eternal luxury and paradise.

How can I master the love that God has so gently poured out for my life and project it into others? Am I somehow missing His purpose for my life, by getting so focused on the negativity surrounding me?

Philippians 4:8 states: “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. “

Living in a society so focused on our desires, wants, passions, growth…and simply ourselves, has definitely placed its weight on my spiritual walk with Christ. I find myself wondering which career will make me the happiest, the college with the best campus, and even the friends who are the funniest to be around.

When Jesus walked on earth, he gave of himself to the lowliest, the weakest, and the hurting. How am I going to be able to somehow master his love, if I am focusing on myself? My goals in life have to be directed in what his desires are for me, and no longer how I look in my peer’s eyes.

People are going to disappoint you, and leave you with questions on the morality of life. They will hurt you so deeply that there will be times that you are sitting alone in the dark, wishing you could somehow pull yourself up for a breath of fresh air. It is during those times that we learn who we are and what is most important to us. We discover that life is so much deeper than other’s ideas, and more about what God has in store for our life.

I know that if I wouldn’t have been so stubborn when I was younger, it would have saved me from a lot trouble. Should I overanalyze my mistakes and tell myself what I failure I am? NO!

"In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." -John 16:33