A letter I wrote to myself, to remember who I am

Dear Kimberly,
Though it is sometimes hard to remember who you are, you know deep down inside. First of all, you were born to understand people. Some have pondered why things happen to certain people, and you live to know. Every fiber of your being needs, wants, and depends on knowing the truth. Although it is hard to face, life sucks. Some people may come to you and tell you that you need to fit their mold, but you have never been the same as everyone else.
Some people were born to “go with the flow”. You were born to follow your own path. For those that are simple, their path is smooth and easy. They focus all of their attention on the cracks, and make so much drama for themselves. It is totally different for you. Your path is rigged and steep. Unlike the simple folks, you face your attention on the clouds.
Though that sounds so cliché, you have goals. Your future is planned out, and you need to remember what you are doing. Alexandria is not where you plan on staying, so quit trying to plant you feet here. There are many people who will try to thwart your path, but you are still on the same track. So many guys are out there, that you shouldn’t waste so much time trying to get one. If he wakes up one day, and decides to appreciate your personality, then so be it. Until then, you need to live.
You need to stop being so hard on your parents. They know what you have been through, and the best way for you to succeed. So what if they don’t trust you 24/7, can you blame them? You don’t exactly have a clean slate. Try to be nice to your mom, she loves you, and cherishes you far more than you could ever imagine.
Remember when you were little, and you would run around outside and pretend there were fairies everywhere? The rush of excitement when you would see light flicker off a leaf in an unnatural way…Maybe it wasn’t all in your imagination. Perhaps you were seeing a glimpse of an angel’s tail. Or maybe it was just the flicker off of your mom’s glasses. She loves you so much, and you continually hurt her. If she ever spoke to you once in the way you do her, you would fall to pieces. Love her, cherish her, trust her, need her.
As for Laura, stop making her life so hard. You need to be positive around her, because she deserves it. People have caused her pain, and you should be there to uplift her. Just because you get upset, doesn’t mean you need to express all of your concern to her. She needs room to breathe, and doesn’t need to be in a bad mood because of you.
Trust people more. There are many people out there who would die for you. How can you live in a world full of walls, when all you need to heal is a couple of broken bridges? You are going in a direction of loneliness, and right now is the best time to stop. Life is full of mistakes, and you need to learn to get over them. I’m pretty sure there are a bunch of married couples, who trust each other completely. That didn’t happen by accident, they just learned to move on from their past.
If you don’t remember any of the rest of this, remember that you are person with a purpose. Negativity will get you nowhere, and you need to be a positive person. Don’t try to change your parent’s minds, and enjoy your last six months of freedom. Pretty soon, you are going to have so much responsibility to deal with. Live a little, breathe more, and trust often.
Love,
You.